Reflections mark the beginning of a visual series exploring the tension between my present self and the version of me God intended.
The first episode is an abstract self-portrait of unintentional self-punishment – the exhausting cycle of striving, failing, and repeating in the wrong direction. Though I work relentlessly to grow, I often find myself building walls instead of breaking them, drifting further from the path God set before me. In this misalignment, my effort becomes my torment; I labor against myself, trapped in a rhythm that keeps my true self buried beneath the flaws I’m desperate to overcome.
The brick symbolizes that burden, the weight of imperfection, guilt, and resistance that never fully break. My struggle to destroy it becomes a reflection of my inability to let go of self-inflicted cycles, leading to frustration, self-resentment, and a quielt loss of love for who I am.
In the end, I discover that freedom lies not in pushing forward, but in regression, a deliberate return to what I abandoned: faith, humility, surrender. To move forward, I must first go backward, Back to God, back to the beginning, where the healing starts.
Directed by Emmanuel Odulana (Nigeria)